life, Love and relationship, Uncategorized

An unfortunate day to be happy

When you’re sad over someone’s birth…and instead of saying “happy birthday”, you say, “I feel sorry the day you were born.”

You’ve caused me so much pain.

I can only imagine the pain that your mother has to go through.

I should know. I’m also a mom.

From the moment I held my son in my arms, I loved him and I promised myself that I’m going to give him the best that I can give him. I will protect him. I will sacrifice for him. I will put him first, above everything.

And to see one’s child fight for a little attention, a scrap of love from someone she does not deserve is a sad sad day to a mom…

You must be so lonely to allow yourself to be treated like trash…someone that they will throw away and forget once they’re done in exchange of “love”.

I feel sorry for your mom.

I feel sorry that you’re sad.

I feel sorry that you’re so afraid to be alone.

Oh yeah, I feel sorry that you were born because I had to meet you…

I had to experience the pain of your brokenness.

And I had to carry it with me for the rest of my life…

When all I ever want was to give the people I love the freedom to choose their own happiness, the freedom to be who they want to be.

So today, I mourn, for the birth of my pain, more than the pain of birth that your mom has experienced because after the pain there was no joy for me…only regret.

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